There should never be confusion in a relationship.

I should always know how you feel and you should always know how I feel. We should be communicating but we’re not. When we talk now, we keep it short and we talk like we’re friends. Maybe not even that though, more like we talk to each other because we feel like we have to because we’re “together”. Ever since he left here, I feel like things aren’t the same, I feel like he can only handle so much of me. Last time we broke up, he told me that I had been annoying him, but when I asked, he never answered what I was doing that annoyed him. So how do I know? Am I annoying him now? What had I done in the past that annoyed him? I never know. We both agreed when we started talking again that we needed to be better with our commincation, so I try to be open with him and ask him things, he completely avoids the question or gives half-ass answers. Whatever the answer may be, good or bad, I’m a big girl and I’m sure I can handle it, don’t just completely avoid it all together. We are adults and this is part of having an adult relationship. I just don’t even know anymore. I don’t know where his heart and head are at. Shit, I don’t even know where mine are either, but I know one thing for damn sure, I’m going to know where we stand before I leave here for four months. I’m not going to be stuck wondering. Whether we break up or stay together, I can handle it. But I’m not going to let this uncertainty block my focus while I’m in training. I’d rather know than be left wondering. I’m the type to always fight for what/who I love and fight for my relationships, but what if our relationship has just ran it’s course and it’s time to throw in the towel? That’s not necessarily what I want, but I honestly don’t know where this is going from here.