I really can’t even believe this.

Tomorrow is my last day before I leave for training and he won’t even come see me because he has “something else to do”. I’m going to be gone 4 months, and he won’t even take a day out of his life to see me one last time before I go. I am hurt, angry, upset, and confused. I feel extremely unimportant and insignificant. I can’t even tell you why I even continue to try anymore. If I am such a burden, then why continue to be with me? … As a matter of fact, we apparently aren’t even together, so why continue to play with my head, heart, and emotions? I feel like this is just so not worth trying over anymore. I can’t even get a reason as to why he won’t come up here. My questions are avoided and my feelings are a game to him obviously. I’m tired of playing this. I deserve so much better and so much more, I really do.